Lipstick and Falsies: Best Friends

The Husband and I (Don't you love his crown?)

This last week has seen skeletons come out of the closet and huge regrets form!

I have a friend who I liked from a far for a while and when he was briefly single last year it became apparent he liked me too however, at the time I was firmly hung up on Mr Thomas and he was still pretty hung up on his ex so, nothing happened.

We both went about our lives he got back with his ex and I focused more on Tom to try and bury what feelings I had for this guy and didn't speak to him for a few months to make it easier on myself. It transpires after a drunken conversation (him being the drunk one) that in his words: "I would happily been yours" I responded saying he would have always gone back to his ex and that he would never have been mine and he responded with "No I wouldn't have had I not thought Tom would own you quite so much" :(

Its unleashed a whole word of regret and pain to think I've been single 3 years and the one guy I really and truly had feelings for would have been mine if I hadn't shut the feelings out and focused on Tom! Ive been over Tom for quite sometime but he is very much a part of my life being my best friend and the one I turn too when anything is wrong. To an outsider Tom and I seem very much like a married couple but its purely Platonic.

I'm not sure what I want out of posting this I suppose its just one of those need to air it to outsiders but, I totally hate feeling regret and having old feelings resurface when I cant do anything to change them. I have since been told that if he is ever single he would love to give it a shot but, that makes me feel 100 times worse.

Guys say that us girls are mental but, I think they have just as many issues as we do if not more sometimes!

Anyway sorry for this unrelated blurb!

Well Hello My Gorgeous Readers,

It has been a fair few months since I have sat down to write to you and lots has happened some which you can guess from the post title.

Granny and her husband Stan

I started the year losing my ex's Gran she lost her battle with Lung Cancer and passed away on January 6th. I had a lot of respect and love for Granny she had been in my life since I was 16 so, It was a very hard saying goodbye and even harder seeing my in laws for the first time in 2 years. Thankfully my amazing best Friend Tom was there to hold my hand, wipe away my tears and cuddle me, I don't think I could have got through that without him.

I got a little wrapped up in family at that point as I am sure you can understand and when I was ready to come back and start bringing you reviews, looks and even videos I lost my Uncle Kevin and my world fell apart a bit. Uncle Kevin was my favourite Uncle I had an awful lot of love for him for things he had done for me throughout my younger years and I always used to stay with him, his wife and my two cousins when I was younger. The hardest thing about this situation was that my Dad and Uncle Kev weren't on speaking terms so, the lead up to his passing was very difficult having to see how distraught my Dad was especially when he thought that he may not get to make peace with him as Uncle Kev was unconscious.

Uncle Kevin and Olly his Grandson

Thankfully Kev did regain consciousness for a few days and even though we are not sure if he knew who we were Dad did get to speak to him before he finally lost his battle with Lung and Bone Cancer on 2nd March. I have never witnessed a funeral with so many people in attendance over 200 people came to show their respects and again Tom was there to drive me and my sister there and then to cuddle me afterwards.

My Awesome Cake :)

Then came my 31st, yes I am a year older as of 19th April! My birthday weekend certainly started and ended with a bang (literally) My Tom made me an amazing cake covered in hearts and skulls. On the Saturday we all went out drinking and dancing whilst Tom took some hilarious pictures and Sarah took a hilarious video which is below. I ended my night being a drunken idiot and falling over and whacking my head on the pavement queue the tears!

I thought everything was OK until I got to Monday and I was still rather spaced out, I checked my symptoms on NHS Direct and it said call an ambulance which I though was a bit drastic so, I called the non urgent number and indeed it ended with an ambulance being called for me. I arrived at hospital had an intial examination by a nurse and then a thorough one by a doctor, It was determined there was no bleed on the brain just concussion and a bit of whiplash. I wasn't allowed to be on my own for a further 24 hours so, Tom insisted he look after me and that he did :)

Its been a week since the accident and I'm still suffering with headaches but I don't feel spaced out anymore which is great.

I would like to take this time to thank the brands and people I was working with prior to my hiatus for being so understanding and for all the love my friends and readers have given me during these difficult months. I feel ready to start focusing on the blog again and I hope you will all enjoy reading it again.

I will leave you with some pictures from my birthday which I hope you will find as funny as we did :)

Much Love

Ems xo