Off Topic: Boys!

The Husband and I (Don't you love his crown?)

This last week has seen skeletons come out of the closet and huge regrets form!

I have a friend who I liked from a far for a while and when he was briefly single last year it became apparent he liked me too however, at the time I was firmly hung up on Mr Thomas and he was still pretty hung up on his ex so, nothing happened.

We both went about our lives he got back with his ex and I focused more on Tom to try and bury what feelings I had for this guy and didn't speak to him for a few months to make it easier on myself. It transpires after a drunken conversation (him being the drunk one) that in his words: "I would happily been yours" I responded saying he would have always gone back to his ex and that he would never have been mine and he responded with "No I wouldn't have had I not thought Tom would own you quite so much" :(

Its unleashed a whole word of regret and pain to think I've been single 3 years and the one guy I really and truly had feelings for would have been mine if I hadn't shut the feelings out and focused on Tom! Ive been over Tom for quite sometime but he is very much a part of my life being my best friend and the one I turn too when anything is wrong. To an outsider Tom and I seem very much like a married couple but its purely Platonic.

I'm not sure what I want out of posting this I suppose its just one of those need to air it to outsiders but, I totally hate feeling regret and having old feelings resurface when I cant do anything to change them. I have since been told that if he is ever single he would love to give it a shot but, that makes me feel 100 times  worse.

Guys say that us girls are mental but, I think they have just as many issues as we do if not more sometimes!

Anyway sorry for this unrelated blurb!

Two Funerals, A Birthday and a Head Injury.... Its been so long!

Well Hello My Gorgeous Readers,

It has been a fair few months since I have sat down to write to you and lots has happened some which you can guess from the post title.

Granny and her husband Stan

I started the year losing my ex's Gran she lost her battle with Lung Cancer and passed away on January 6th. I had a lot of respect and love for Granny she had been in my life since I was 16 so, It was a very hard saying goodbye and even harder seeing my in laws for the first time in 2 years. Thankfully my amazing best Friend Tom was there to hold my hand, wipe away my tears and cuddle me, I don't think I could have got through that without him.

I got a little wrapped up in family at that point as I am sure you can understand and when I was ready to come back and start bringing you reviews, looks and even videos I lost my Uncle Kevin and my world fell apart a bit. Uncle Kevin was my favourite Uncle I had an awful lot of love for him for things he had done for me throughout my younger years and I always used to stay with him, his wife and my two cousins when I was younger. The hardest thing about this situation was that my Dad and Uncle Kev weren't on speaking terms so, the lead up to his passing was very difficult having to see how distraught my Dad was especially when he thought that he may not get to make peace with him as Uncle Kev was unconscious.

Uncle Kevin and Olly his Grandson

Thankfully Kev did regain consciousness for a few days and even though we are not sure if he knew who we were Dad did get to speak to him before he finally lost his battle with Lung and Bone Cancer on 2nd March. I have never witnessed a funeral with so many people in attendance over 200 people came to show their respects and again Tom was there to drive me and my sister there and then to cuddle me afterwards.

My Awesome Cake :)

Then came my 31st, yes I am a year older as of 19th April! My birthday weekend certainly started and ended with a bang (literally) My Tom made me an amazing cake covered in hearts and skulls. On the Saturday we all went out drinking and dancing whilst Tom took some hilarious pictures and Sarah took a hilarious video which is below. I ended my night being a drunken idiot and falling over and whacking my head on the pavement queue the tears!

I thought everything was OK until I got to Monday and I was still rather spaced out, I checked my symptoms on NHS Direct and it said call an ambulance which I though was a bit drastic so, I called the non urgent number and indeed it ended with an ambulance being called for me. I arrived at hospital had an intial examination by a nurse and then a thorough one by a doctor, It was determined there was no bleed on the brain just concussion and a bit of whiplash. I wasn't allowed to be on my own for a further 24 hours so, Tom insisted he look after me and that he did :)

Its been a week since the accident and I'm still suffering with headaches but I don't feel spaced out anymore which is great.

I would like to take this time to thank the brands and people I was working with prior to my hiatus for being so understanding and for all the love my friends and readers have given me during these difficult months. I feel ready to start focusing on the blog again and I hope you will all enjoy reading it again.

I will leave you with some pictures from my birthday which I hope you will find as funny as we did :)

Much Love

Ems xo

Winding up the boys for giggles!

This Picture looks very wrong but so funny

The Ruby Pout

Tom and Yas were fascinated with my boobs!

Too much drunk laughter

Walrus Ems

Sisters

Drunk silly face 1

Silly face 2

My favourite picture of the night, Tom is a very bad man!

Highlights of The Week

Beautiful Brighton Beach & West Pier early evening

Morning Lovelies!

I thought I would try and bring a bit more of a personal post to you once a week so you can get to know me a little better and get a look into what I have been doing.

Here are the highlights of last week:

Tuesday I had a random evening out, I always find unplanned randomness is the most fun. My good friend Tom messaged and asked me to join him for an evening of Beer, Beach BBQ's and movies. It was a lovely night we haven't seen each other for a while so, it was great catching up with him and chatting about dates and other things going on in our lives whilst the sun went down. We went through a few beers, some Ben and Jerry's cookie dough and quite a bit of p*ss taking from him, no night with Tom is normal without some kind of p*ss taking.

Freshly burnt finger due to forgetting utensils #Idiot

Friday was Date night! I have been chatting to this lovely guy for a few months now and we finally managed to get together for a few drinks in my local, some food and then a few movies. I had been really excited about this one as we just seemed to click from the minute we started chatting. The date went really well and he has said he would like to see me again so, watch this space. 

Date Night Look

 I am a little sceptical when it comes to second dates because they never seem to happen for me so, I never get my hopes up or getting too excited because I would get really hurt on a regular basis. I think the only person I have been on more than one date with is Tom but that's because he isn't into me like that *Insert huge frowny face*, I suppose you could call them "Mate Dates". Tom and I initially met through a dating site we hit it off and have been very good friends ever since meeting around 3 months ago, I would totally date him and he knows it but its not going to happen! 

Anyway enough of that lets move onto Saturday, I had a surprise visitor who arrived with the most beautiful bunch of flowers for me. I haven't had flowers brought for me for at least 9 years so, for him to say " I was in the area and drove passed a florist and thought Ahhh I will get some flowers for Ems that will make her smile" did just that put a huge grin on my face. I cant name the person because he said if people find out they will think he has gone soft, it wasn't soft at all it just proved what an amazing friend he is.

So, that was my weeks highlights, I hope you enjoyed a bit of a look into what goes on when I am not blogging about Beauty etc and I will leave you with a picture of my beautiful flowers,

Ems xo