Follow My Pregnancy Journey

Hi Beauties,

As some of you may be aware from twitter I am officially around 8 weeks pregnant. I have decided to blog about my first pregnancy from start to finish. If any of you wonderful people want to follow my journey you can visit: frmbumptobaby.blogspot.co.uk

I will be attempting to update it as often as possible and I hope you will enjoy following this magical time with me.

Speak soon about more beauty related stuff :)

Off Topic: Boys!

The Husband and I (Don't you love his crown?)

This last week has seen skeletons come out of the closet and huge regrets form!

I have a friend who I liked from a far for a while and when he was briefly single last year it became apparent he liked me too however, at the time I was firmly hung up on Mr Thomas and he was still pretty hung up on his ex so, nothing happened.

We both went about our lives he got back with his ex and I focused more on Tom to try and bury what feelings I had for this guy and didn't speak to him for a few months to make it easier on myself. It transpires after a drunken conversation (him being the drunk one) that in his words: "I would happily been yours" I responded saying he would have always gone back to his ex and that he would never have been mine and he responded with "No I wouldn't have had I not thought Tom would own you quite so much" :(

Its unleashed a whole word of regret and pain to think I've been single 3 years and the one guy I really and truly had feelings for would have been mine if I hadn't shut the feelings out and focused on Tom! Ive been over Tom for quite sometime but he is very much a part of my life being my best friend and the one I turn too when anything is wrong. To an outsider Tom and I seem very much like a married couple but its purely Platonic.

I'm not sure what I want out of posting this I suppose its just one of those need to air it to outsiders but, I totally hate feeling regret and having old feelings resurface when I cant do anything to change them. I have since been told that if he is ever single he would love to give it a shot but, that makes me feel 100 times  worse.

Guys say that us girls are mental but, I think they have just as many issues as we do if not more sometimes!

Anyway sorry for this unrelated blurb!

Off Topic - Internet Dating: Yay or Nay?

A few months ago I decided to plunge into the world of Internet dating because seriously dating is a pain in the bum! You cant meet a nice guy in a pub or club these days it just doesn't happen (oh dear I sound old) I joined Plenty of Fish initially for a laugh but its turned into a full time job in itself!

I am not blowing my own trumpet because a lot of the emails I get are from weirdos or people that I am just not interested in dating but, in the last week I have counted that I have actually replied to more than 200 emails! 

Can you really find a nice decent guy? So far only one that I would have dated unfortunately he turned out to be a player, yes there are lots of them too!

Is it worth the time and effort? In my case possibly because meeting guys here is hard, like I said you just don't meet a guy that's wanting to form a relationship in a club or a pub.

My family are actually very supportive my mum does say she cant see how I have had to resort to doing it but that's because Mum is bias and thinks her daughters are the most beautiful things to walk the planet! Mum wake up its not true!!

I kind of wanted to post about this because there does seem to still be a big issue with Internet dating, people still think its weird and unsafe. There are weirdos on there but on the whole I have encountered really nice guys but most of them live miles away.

At this current moment I think all that I could get out of it is a few more friends, but I still have hope I wont be single for much longer because its getting boring to be honest and I would like kids one day!

Anyway I hope you enjoyed my middle of the night/early morning lack of sleep random post! What do you think about Internet dating? Would you do it?

Ems xo